Yeah, I have problems of my own.
And, sometimes, I just want to be left alone.
I’m going to write an honest and D and M kind of entry today…
Hmm… I’ve been reminiscing a lot lately. Like, I go into random daydreams and just start thinking about… stuff. In a way, some of them are flashbacks from things that have happened in this past year. I guess it’s cos… like, this time a year ago, we were at Ballon, and that’s something for me to look back on, so I can see how much has changed in a year… If that makes sense? I dunno. So much has changed, though. Some things for the better, some for the worse.
I feel like I’ve lost so much… My friendships with some people especially. There are people who I hardly even talk to anymore. And it sucks. Namely,- Alison, Hayley, Bree Hutton, Bree Stewart, Madi, Chloe, Rainbow, Jess.R- just to name a few. I miss you guys so much. 
And, somehow, I feel like it’s my fault that these friendships have died. Maybe it’s my fault cos I didn’t put enough effort into the friendships? Maybe I didn’t hold on tight enough- maybe I shouldn’t have let them slip away. Maybe I need to re-study my priorities- and get them right. I need to remember what’s important to me. But I don’t know anymore.
I don’t even know what I’m talking about anymore…
Anyway. Everyone seems to be upset about one thing or another these days… And I’m no exception. I guess everyone just has their problems…
*sigh*
I hate it when you’re having a really good day, then suddenly, someone says something, or just one little thing happens, and everything starts going downhill. You feel like your whole world is suddenly crashing down on top of you. Then you look around to find someone to help you up, but there’s no one there. Because everyone else is involved/buried in some other problem of their own. So then you have to pull yourself up and forget about your problems for a while, cos you need to help them. But once they’re fine and unhurt again, you look back at yourself- and your injuries are still there. Your problems are still there. You can manage to help other people, but you can never seem to help yourself. But you can’t let other people see that you’re hurt. You want them to think that you’re okay. So you put on a brave face, fake a smile, fake a laugh and keep living.
Cos the world won’t stop spinning. Life just goes on…
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naww.. you know i have felt like that since the start of the year.
next year, we will find everyone back, together.
cose we can make new beginings, if we cant change the endings.
x
i am sorry.
awwww. you sound so down, i dont know why but at least emmeline is there for you. i think theres this saying where like in your life time, to find a best friend is really hard, but you’ve already found yours
yea i cant deny that we dont talk to each other that much
but i must say, even though i hardly talk to you, but like every time we see each other we actually acknowledge and wave at each other!
coz many many many people i used to be friends with we dont even have eye contact anymore
so i really appreciate it when you wave
Nawwww rainbow lai
ur so freaking amazing
I’m so giving you a hug tomorowww
let’s group huggggggg (: